randomness. and thoughts. and probably a few grammatical mistakes. whatevs.

I've got a few posts waiting in the reserves that aren't ready to be published. I was able to successfully start the thoughts, but ran into a dead-end trying to finish them, so hanging in blogging limbo is where they'll stay.

I have SOOOOO much going on in my life that I want to share, but I'm holding off for a few days until I can. Two of my predominant thoughts are as follows:

1) This town ain't big enough for all of us
and
2) YAYAYAYAYAY!!!!!

I'm a teensy bit anxious for my oral surgery in the morning, but I have to remind myself that this is a GOOD THING. And Praise the Lord, a relatively inexpensive thing! There is a spiritual nugget I will share, but only after surgery... maybe this weekend! My Mom is heading up to stay with me tonight since I'll be knocked out tomorrow. She will also be taking me home to recuperate and frankly be a bit spoiled for the weekend. Clearly, there won't be any complaints there.

Other than that, I'm gearing up for NYC. I've discovered a few things that would normally place a bad light on my thanksgiving plans, but I'm choosing to not acknowledge them unless I have to. In my lifetime, I've played the victim too often. Part of what God has been doing (especially) the last 2 1/2 years is showing me that my shortcomings are based out of fear of success. Stuff has happened to me; it's happened to all of us. Choosing to play victim to that stuff is no way to be successful. And I am choosing to be successful in the things I do. There will always be people that I don't want to see and interact with. But I can control my reaction and choose not to let anyone's presence affect me so intensely. In laymen's terms, I'm tired of being a drama queen. I know somebody just fell over reading that, but if I have the courage to face that, trust me... I'm making HUGE strides. My brother and I solidified what we'll be doing with our family this next week, and those plans make me very happy!!!!

... to be continued ...